INNER TRAVEL

 

This is a travel blog so seeing as I haven’t had a trip since Costa Rica, which was in Feb of this year, the blog hasn’t been updated. There is something about airports that inspires me to write. Not sure if it’s the dynamic lives of people about to embark on an adventure of some sort, or the fact that I am away from routine and I myself am about to transcend into my own little adventure that inevitably involves change. My plane to Peru is about to depart. As i'm waiting I have many thoughts swirling around. Just because I haven’t journeyed physically to a different country I have been experiencing a dynamic journey within, that is far more vast and colourful than my eyes see in my external reality.
The plane starts to rumble, like a hungry belly, as it cruises at high speeds down the runway on it’s way to Peru. I missed that feeling, it’s a desired sensation. Sort of like the feeling upon the soles of your feet when your skateboarding down a cobblestone street.
Before I get too excited and side tracked about sharing my trip to Peru I will unfold my inner journey, which is a continual process of awareness, forgiveness and acceptance. An on going path of surrendering right into the moment of whatever the universe has to offer us. Sometimes this inner journey is so precious and tender to share yet reveals vulnerability, which leads to growth and an undeniable sense of compassion.
In the past year I have been experiencing all the different levels of grief, from losing my Mom and Dad within 9 months of each other. This has brought on waves of emotions, confusion, heartbreaking realizations and incredible breakthroughs. As well as a deeper understanding of who I am and my purpose on this earth. I have different questions about death and spirit. Which is one thing we will all have in common and that is it will always be a mystery as to what happens when the physical body ceases to exist.
This draws me closer to people, animals, nature and every living creature on the planet. As we have been given the opportunity to bless every moment you have with your loved ones. It allows me to open my heart deeper and fall in love even if there is a chance it will get broken. Within that heart break there is a transformation that occurs. It cracks you open so that you reveal that light that desperately wants to shine through and infect everyone around you with positive healing energy.
Within this process of communicating and nurturing my inner landscape comes various levels of frustration as well as extreme emotions of gratitude. My current practice is to find balance. Even though balance when you are in the tornado doesn’t seem attainable, it’s reality and it’s raw that life is diverse and has extreme layers. So maybe it’s better just to embrace what you’re truly experiencing instead of resisting thinking why can’t my life be more balanced?
This understanding of me and the body that I have chosen to house my spirit all comes down to meditation. Stilling the fluctuations and having a moment to really listen without reacting, or judging. This is the internal trip that I have been on in the last 2 months leading up to this Yoga retreat I am about to teach in Cusco, Peru.
My life is full of adventure apparently whether I am on a plane to a far off destination or sitting on my living room floor. It’s all in how we connect and embrace the present moment. Hence my business name, home is where the heart is. 
My Mom gave me a book when I was about 19, called the Celestine Prophecy and I was fascinated with this story. Immediately I told her one day I am going to visit Machu Pichu. Shortly after that read the movie came out about the spiritual lost city of stones with Shirley MacLaine and then everyone seem to know about it and people began to venture there and hike the Inca trail. It’s amazing what happens in your life when you plant the seeds of a dream and watch it grow into reality. That reality is now and I am able to share with you my journey.
So until next time, which will be in Peru. Thanks for taking the time to read my words that come from my heart.